Depression is a bitch. In all it’s forms.
No matter what stage you’re in, it’s awful. Adding in heartbreak and grief and it’s a whole other ballpark.
I feel like it’s not talked about enough when you’re in so much emotional pain that your body physically hurts, you think sleeping will help, but you wake up in pain, in more ways than one. No one likes to talk about that part of depression, it’s one of the worst parts, to me. You feel like you’re in an ocean and the waves are coming at you constantly and won’t stop, you can’t come up for air. But, at some point, you get a small break, you can catch your breath for a minute before the waves come back again.
I’m currently watching Euphoria, they did an excellent job portraying depression in Rue, showing her physically hurting as well. I’ve never seen that actually shown.
I don’t know at what point it truly gets better, for real gets better. When you aren’t just coming up for air but you can walk out of the ocean. But, i’m excited for that day.
I think it’s important to find a really good support system. People that will love you with no judgement or conditions… It’s hard to let yourself get attached people, with the fear of them leaving or disappointing you, but at some point you have to start letting people in, even though the fall out hurts. You’re gonna be okay.
One day you’ll wake up and you won’t hurt as bad. One day you’ll wake up and you won’t have had nightmares the whole night before or cried yourself to sleep. One day you’re gonna wake up and be okay.
We got this babes.