Holiday Blues

It’s 100% okay to not feel “holly jolly” this Christmas season.

Everyone has their battles.

You don’t need to explain to anyone why. Why you don’t want to go to that party. Why you don’t want to go to the family get together. Why you just want to stay home instead. You don’t owe anyone an explanation.

Christmas brings up a lot of trauma for me. When I was sexually abused as a child it was on Christmas Day.

Christmas also brings up a lot of religious trauma for me.

And that’s okay.

It’s okay to feel your trauma, to feel your hurt. Let yourself feel those things so you can work on your healing. If you keep it bottled up you will like a sinking ship, you’ll never be able to come up for air. Once you start working on those things, those traumas, you can start to breath a little more, get your head a little above water more and more until you’re swimming.

Healing is messy. It’s not fun. But, it’s necessary for growth. I read one time that if you have trauma that is not dealt with, every time you think about that moment, or have a flash back, your body produces the exact same chemicals as when it happened to you the first. So you’re reliving your trauma over and over. That’s nuts to me. Every time I used to have a flash back, of multiple instances, it would hit me all over again, and it makes sense. In dealt with trauma will catch up to at some point and normally at the most uncontrollable moment.

Hollidays are hard enough, most people have family drama. Add in trauma and hurt and recovery of some form and it’s a mess. BUT. YOU CAN DO THIS. WE CAN DO THIS.

We got this, babes.


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