TW: sexual assault

Last week at work a girl looked at me and said “can I ask you something personal?” So I said of course, she said “did you ever report it?” … I obviously knew what she was talking about. So I told her No, I did not. The assault when I was a child my parents reported though. But, the bad one at 19, I kept that to myself.

Some people know about it. Only about 3 people know any details about it.

The assaults in between childhood and 19 weren’t reported either, but 19 was worse than the others.

19 and 20 it happened 3 times. 3 different people. All bad. It’s always bad, don’t get me wrong. But, they were the worst.

D ruined my outlook on sex. D ruined my self confidence. D ruined me for a long time.

R and K took away the little hope I had left inside of me.

D was violent and I can still see it. I can still feel it sometimes.

Why didn’t I report it? I knew it wouldn’t matter. I knew that the system is so screwed up that it doesn’t matter, it’s my word against theirs. Sometimes I wish I did so that I could stand up for other girls and say that I reported my abuse and maybe won. But, I was too scared. And that’s okay. It’s okay to be scared.

I’ll keep sharing my story, my stories, in hopes to help other people.

If reporting your abuse is something you want to do and need help, I’m here for you. If you need someone to talk to/vent to, I’m here for you.

We got this babes.

We won’t let them win and take our happiness.

Sexual Assault Hotline : 800-656-4673

-S

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